I have a lot on my mind

This Christmas was a joy for me. I wanted to try to touch each person in my life who I love personally, and I was able to do what I set out to do. Not that I was able to express exactly to each person what they meant to me, but the gifts I gave came from a place of thoughtfulness.

This life is hard. The thing that people lose sight of almost immediately in a bad situation is the love other people have for them. They don’t see it. And we aren’t good at showing it. At least I’m not.

I was talking to a friend about the need to be more inclusive in the church. The fact that we make gay people feel they aren’t welcome. We don’t know what to do with them. But I think Jesus would want them to be a part of his family. I just don’t know how that plays out in our world. My friend said that she had been asked to stand up for a gay couple at a gay wedding. The couple told her she could say no if she wanted to. While she didn’t want to stand up for them, she would have attended the wedding. She said she didn’t think she would be able to stand up for them, and they said that they had never felt more judged in their whole life.

I don’t have any answers.

My cousin’s children have been taken out of their maternal grandfather’s home because of addiction issues…..my cousin is not in his children’s lives. He is an addict and he is unapologetic about being an addict, and has no intention of trying to get sober in this life. So his kids have no home. Nobody is stepping up to help them.

My husband’s second cousin committed suicide on Christmas day. I didn’t know her except in passing. Apparently she suffered for a long time. She left two daughters.

Apparently several years ago when my husband’s uncle passed away, one of his cousins loaded up a truck full of his things before the body was cold. So they aren’t even telling her that her sister has passed away. They think she is evil.

When I see these things being played out, I think about my own family and how fractured it is, and how inevitable these conflicts seem. It makes me sad. You do your very best in life, and you have to leave the results up to God.




I have a lot on my mind